Daaaaamn I hate this break in period for my rotors. It's fuckin' gay. I can't get heavy on the brakes if my life depended on it. Basicly, it an old lady was crossin' da street and I'd have to stop, I'd rather run her over then warp or crack my new cross-drills. Oh well, looks like I'll just do lots of driving then. Hmmmmm. What to do tomorrow (well, today)? I wanna do something new for once. The S.G.V. is just boring now. Only thing we got are food, boba, and food. Otherwise it's kick it at the homie's. Hmmmm, maybe I'll just goto Michelle's house and help her move all her shit back into her room (watch, I'm gonna hurt myself). I don't know. No cash to spend either. Bah, maybe I'll go over to Tan's crib and maybe goto the gym with him.
I love Michelle with all my heart, but her dad is a fuckin' asshole at times.... well, most of the time. And it's only to me cuz I'm supposedly the "asshole boyfriend" that wants nothing but to "get into her panties." Man, what the fuck is the guy thinkin'? Just cuz he was a player back in his day don't mean that I'm one. I try not to let him get to me, but fuck, I hate goin' to her house when he's there. He's always watchin' me like a fuckin' hawk. He's always givin' me the eye n shit. Hell, I wouldn't be too damn suprised if he's sayin' shit about me in tagalog. Another thing that's gay is he won't even let me take her out now. Whenever we go out, we gotta take the boy with us. How fuckin' gay is that shit, on the real. It was hard enough to get alone time with Michelle before, but now, it's almost impossible. On the real, I really wish that he would just put the fuckin' hard ass routine down. I mean, hell, if I want to be a hard ass, I'll fuckin' be a lot more worse then him (not to mention hell of a lot more violent too). I mean, shit, I used to kick it with cholos. But just cuz I hung around with gangsters n shit don't mean I'm not a good guy. Most of the people that know me on a personal level know that I'm a good guy and I don't mind helping other people out (even if it means screwing myself over). "Live by the 10, die by the 10" as the saying goes. I just needed to get some of that shit off my chest. And since this is on a public forum, where he could see it easily, all I wanna say is "HEY!!! I know she's your daughter, but she's my best friend, my lover, my #2, my right hand person, whateever the fuck you wanna call it, that's what she is to me. And if you can't get it through you're thick skull that she's my world, then you need to open your eyes, swallow ya pride, and fuckin' learn that NOT EVERY GUY IS A PLAYER!!!!" I mean, hell, I got my head on so straight that I wouldn't even play. I'd just dump all of my cash into my car. Would I know what love is if it was that way? Yes, but not on this deep of a level. I love my car so much that I'll probably never sell it, but I love Michelle so much that I'd die for her, just so that way she could live on because if it came down to one of us dieing for something, I'd die cuz I see so much potential in Michelle and I know that she could do anything she wants and probably be happy. As for me, I'm already doing something I love and I'm happy. I'd just want her to continue with her dreams since I've achieved most of mine. But I guess a person could always dream new dreams, but I'm more then content with what I have right now in life as a whole.
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