Rant - I'm good at driving. You aren't!

I'm still trying to find time to transfer more posts here, but something that happened tonight really got on my nerves, and what better place to vent then here on my own blog.

I had to make a run back to the warehouse tonight to pick up a customer's order so I can drop it off on my way in for tomorrow. Anyways, on the way back I was damn near run off the road by some twat driving a 5-series BMW. Thank God I was driving my wife's Civic that has good suspension, brakes and tires. If it weren't for this combination with the skills I learned road racing, this post may not be here. The likelihood of me landing in the hospital would be very high.

Anyways, all of this happened at the 5 and 134 freeway interchange. Those of you familiar with the Burbank/Glendale area knows exactly where this is. I was driving along on the 134 westbound and to my left is the transition road from the 5 northbound to the 134 west. I notice a 5-series BMW (with the horrible Bangle body style) doing about 85 mph. That's no big deal. If fact, I've taken that transition road at much higher speeds without issue. The issue was that the twat in the BMW keeps driving straight at said speed while the road is turning left, crossing many lanes in no time. I did not have enough time to get on the horn. By the time I realized that this person is off in whatever dreamland they're in, I had no choice but to get on the brakes hard and swerve right in order to avoid a collision. The issue with going right is that the lane is not only closing, but it is very uneven. The unevenness of the road is enough that for a normal driver in the same situation will undoubtedly loose traction and thus loose all control of the vehicle. With all these combinations in play, the rear end of my wife's Civic begins to rotate clockwise. By instinct I let off the brakes, get on the gas and countersteer and I'm able to recover the vehicle before I loose it.

This rant isn't so much about the situation as my anger at how low the bar is set to be licenced to drive a motor vehicle here in America. The skills required to even control a relatively light weight vehicle as my wife's Civic in an emergency situation is quite high. Knowing how to feel how much traction you have left at each tire is a skill that must be learned and maintained and very hard to master. Also the level of attention required to be aware of your surroundings and be able to react quickly enough to avoid such situations is also very high. It is definitely something that is not taught in drivers ed courses or even behind-the-wheel classes. The very few that elect to participate in vehicle control courses is not enough to offset the masses that don't. Vehicle control MUST be part of the driving curriculum in order to be a licenced driver. I've even agree to have a ladder system that much of Europe incorporates into their licensing system where what and where you're allowed to drive will be based upon your overall ability to SAFELY control the vehicle in those environments.

Intermission between old Xanga posts

As I look back on a lot of these posts, there are a few things popping into my mind. 1: Was I really that angry when I was younger? 2: All the things that annoy me or piss me off about the stupidity of the next generation, I saw in myself in these early posts. To be frank, it starting scaring the crap out of me. I always figured myself to be an intelligent guy. But now to look back on recorded history of yourself, one really must ask "What in hell was I thinking of posting that?" What it really boils down to is that I was young and stupid at one time. Just like many of you kids that may be reading this. I was a young adult, so caught up in my own dream world that it would be hard for anyone to snap you out of it. There are times when I say "stupid hurts". Looking at some of these older posts, I may have ALMOST hurt my own brain with... of all things, my own brain. So, lesson to be learned be you young folk. Yes, you are dumber then you think you are.

originally posted 1/16/03

PCC parking sucks ass. I purchased a 60 semester permit to just park on the street and at Konno. It's because of the parking I've been late to class twice this week and ITS THE SAME FUCKING CLASS!!!!!!! God damn, are they intentionally trying to get me to fail due to bad attendence? FAAAAWWWWWWKKKKK!!!!!!!!!! Now I wish I was a morning person. Man, you know what, fuck PCC. In the Fall, I'm going to Rio Hondo. Least they got the Honda Pack program there.

originally posted 1/13/03

Today was pretty good. After I dropped off a few thing, I spent the day with Michelle. And as I knew it from the week and how she's been kinda PMSing, I knew her period was about to start. WHY THE HELL AM I RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING?!?!?! Sometimes I don't want to be right. I want to be WRONG.... DEAD WRONG. Arg. Hahaha. I'm just playin' wit cha. WEll, we went to Burbank mall with her family (damn, it still fuckin' feels wierd sittin' in the back of they mini-van). We first thing was I got some coffie to wake my sleepy ass up, then got some grub from sbrarro (did I spell that right? aw fuck it). Then we went crusin' the mall for a lil, went down to the arcade and I played a lil Inital D and Time Crisis. Good games and expensive if you just keep playin' like I can. Amazingly, I was very self controled today at the arcade. And then, her parents lost Derrick (as usual). Deng, for a 9 year old down syndrom kid, he hides damn good and can be fuckin' stubborn as hell. Oh well, he don't know any better. We found him hiding in one of them lil quater ride things (you know, those lil kiddy rides outside of supermarkets). Then we all flocked over to Footaction where boy got a pimpin' Nike jacket. But while we was there, Derrick started gettin' rambuncious (fuck spelling). He started walkin' around and runnin' around the store running and kinda hitting complete strangers. That was when Mich had to put some dicipline. And as usual Derrick started doin' his fake crying to get some attention cuz he's a lil spoiled brat. But hey, what can ya do? I really wonder how he's gonna get by when he's gonna be big. Kinda scares me a little. It doesn't scare me so much that he's diffrent cuz He's a good kid, but just how is he gonna get by with everything when there's no one to support him. Just lookin' out for him. Hey, he's fam, right? Gotta look out for the flock (even if it is in-law or gonna be someday).

Some things about life are ment to happen to teach you shit. I've learned a lot in my short 18 (almost 19) years on this earth. Most of the things I've learned have been instiled in me so much that its a part of me and I don't even realize shit like that. But for us young peeps, I can't stress enough, respect ya elders. And what I mean by that is not only be nice to em n shit, but hang out with em. Learn from them. They got lots of stories that can teach you just an amazing about of shit and will forever change your life. Ok, some of yall might be thinkin' "What the fuck is this hypicritical motherfucker spewing? He hates his stepdad with a vengence." Its true that I don't get along with my stepdad too well. But at least I give him credit where it's deserved. Do I respect him? As an artistic mind and a profesional, I do, but as a family man, HELLZ NO. But at least I give him props where it's due. Another is to treat ladies with respect. Guys, come on, yall can do hell of a lot better then what I see. Even if it ain't somebody you goin' out with. Do stuff do make their day easier and nicer. Common curtisy. Don't be runnin' ya mouth off round em, be all like "blah blah fuck blah blah bullshit blah blah motherfucker". Yo, watch ya fuckin' mouth. Don't be belchin' n scratchin' ya balls n shit like that round em. Also, open doors and pull seats. Come on. The simplest of things. It'll turn so many heads. And as far as I know, for many ladies, it's a turn on when guys know how to act and behave around ladies. I know, lots of us but our rough edges, but who don't. Ya kno. 3rd but defenetly not last of anything (I'm just gettin' tired), give to the little ones. It's up to us older and more grown to teach these kids right from wrong, and if they do go wrong, whoop they asses til they get it right. We also gotta hand down knowlage and wisdom that we learn and get from our elders. to some of you book savy peeps, remember, knowlage does not equal wisdom. Wisdom equals wisdom and it can't neccaraly be learned from a book (Chicken Soup for the Soul and the Bible is a compleatly diffrent story tho). Alright, more wisdom the next time I got shit that pops into my head.

Lately, my car's been acting up. Doesn't wanna start. I'm really suspecting the main relay. Also, the main relay (altho an easy job), I just don't wanna do it. I'd much rather have the painful task of replacing a starter. Call me wierd, I'd rather work on the mechanical aspect then do some shit with the electrical stuff. But then, that's just me. I guess the whole thing about working on the mechanics is that it's all mathmatical in time and space, whereas with electrical, still mathmatical, I don't really see with my own eyes on what happends. It's just like seeing a magic black box do what it's suppose to do and you're just dumbfounded by it's operation. Whatever.

originally posted 1/11/03

My life sucks ass right now.

originally posted 1/8/03

Well, this morning, my car didn't start. I went out and picked up a starter motor. Stupid me over-reacting. It was a stupid 3 dollar fuse that blew. *rolls eyes* So, looks like I got an errand to K&E Auto Parts again to return the thing. No biggie. Alex and I finally went hunting for free L.A. Auto Show tickets today and came up on 2. WOO HOO! Tomorrow I get a 8 ft pool table and goto the L.A. Auto Show for free (free admitance anyway). Coolnezz. I really like my car. I wish more cars were build like my Legend. I'm probably gonna be buying a Civic soon. It has a blown engine in it, so, B16 swap. As easy as that. Maybe a LS engine. We'll see how things go. Anyway, it'll be awesome to be driving around in a puke green civic 4-door and have the ability to smoke mustangs. If it's gonna go B16, here's how I'm gonna go. CTR pistons, ITR valves and valve springs, Web Cam camshafts, Skunk2 intake manifold, some random CAI system, DC 4-1 headers, random technologies hi-flow cat, Apex'i WS cat-back exhaust system or Greddy SP cat-back exhaust. If I go LS, I can go 2 ways. I still can go N/A or I can go turbo. Turbo will probably be the easiest and most cost effective route. If that's the case, then a Drag stage 2 or 3 turbo kit is in order. Holley fuel pump (I don't wanna starve the engine now), good ecu tuning and call it a day.

I realize that I haven't sang to Michelle in a long ass time. I kinda forgot how it puts a smile on her face and how it lulls her to sleep at night. Do I sound like a hopeless romantic? If so, then I'm still on the right track. hehe. ;) I need to find more slow jams to sing to her. Oh well. I'll find em some way, some how. Ok, I'mma be out now. Talk to you peeps later.

Currently Listening to B2K - What You Get

originally posted 1/6/03

B A S I C Q U E S T I O N S
[my name is]: Dean
[in the morning i am]: annoyed
[all i need]: is one mic
[love is]: the best thing in the world
[if i could see one person right now]: Michelle
[im afraid of]: speed bumps and dips
[i dream about]: racing with the Real Time group

H A V E Y O U E V E R . .
[pictured your crush naked?]: Why would I have to picture if I've already seen?
[actually seen ur crush naked?]: Look above dumbass
[been in love]: yup
[cried when someone died]: of course
[drank alcohol]: Yea (Keith, cut the crap, you must have drunk something at least once before)

T H I S O R T H A T . .
[coke or pepsi]: coke
[flowers or candy]: candy
[scruff or clean shaven]: clean
[tall or short]: tall

W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X . . . . .
[what do u notice first?]: eyes
[worst thing to say]: yes (Espically if the question is "Does this make my butt look big?")

W H O . . . . . . . . .
[makes u laugh the most?]: Laura
[makes you smile]: Michelle
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: Flaco
[has a crush on u?]: ?????
[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: girls

D O Y O U E V E R . .
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?]: yes
[saved aol/aim conversations]: no
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: sure

H A V E Y O U E V E R
[fallen for ur best friend]: negative
[been rejected]: many times
[rejected someone]: yes
[been cheated on]: yes
[done something u regret]: If I did, then I don't regret too much.

W H O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N
[u talked to]: Michelle
[hugged]: Laura
[u instant messaged]: Brian
[u laughed with]: Laura

D O Y O U
[color ur hair]: no
[ever get off the darn computer]: yup
[habla espanol]: No cut-o grass-o today-o????

H A V E Y O U/ /D O Y O U/ /A R E Y O U
[obsessive]: yep
[could u live without the computer?]: negative
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: Gotten down to a trim 117
[what's your favorite food?]: MEAT
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: Grapes
[drink alcohol?]: yes (again, cut the legal crap)
[ever watching sunrises or sunset]: yup
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional
[trust others way too easily?]: Sometimes

F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S
[i want]: persue and accomplish all my life goals
[i wish]: that Michelle was here to hold me

[i love]: Michelle
[i miss]: Michelle
[i fear]: speed bumps and dips
[i hear]: slow jams
[i wonder]: the great minds that come up with stupid fucking shit like this
[how do u know its love?]: You just know
[i am]: Crazy, but practical

originally posted 1/5/03

Man, I've been so bored lately. Seems like nothing new is happening to me. Blah. At least I fixed my oil pan gasket, so I'm not leaking a quart a week. However, I still need to take care of my oil filter o-ring. That will be taken care of soon enough. Woo hoo. Screw on filters for my car now. Carlos is the man. My mom came back from europe and she got me a swiss army knife. Yippy if I was in Jr. high. A little late, ma. Oh well. Better late then never, I guess. I got word that my dad is gonna go in for another surgury and also going to be very risky. All of your prayers will be apprecated. I drained and filled my trans again. It's not as bad, but still sticks the gears when it's cold. Well, lately, I've just been thinking about Michelle. I can't get her out of my mind. I just wanna keep her happy. I dunno. I'll figure something out.

This has gotta be shittin' me: http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=33740&item=1876392244 *rolls eyes* I feel sorry for the ricer that buys this.... acctually, no I don't.

originally posted 1/1/03

Well, happy new year everybody. Hope all yall gonna get a good 2003. Last night I spent it with good friends. It was Michelle, Chalita, Shirley, Flaco and me at Cha's house in Marina Del Ray. Did the whole count down thing and it was lots of fun. Fun in a chillin' kind of way, ya feel. Shir and Flaco left at about 12:30ish. Mich, Cha and me stayed up til about 2ish then went to sleep. Best sleep of my life, having Michelle in my arms (even though it was on a fouton). I know I fucked up the spelling on that, so, don't hate. Yea, it was the best sleep EVAR!!!!!!! And yes, I typed evar. Spend some time in some of the acura forums and you'll know what it means if you don't get it off the bat. Rose Parade is a BIATCH!!!! Tryin' to get home, I had to drive all the fuck over to get around it. On the bright side of it parade, a good friend, Ally Wucetich (sp???) is rose queen. Good for her. She really works hard and she's just a sweethart. Anyway, i'm gonna find somethin' ta do. Lates.

Currently Mixin' - Trina ft. Ludacris - B R Rite (DJ bu-DAH! remix)

Originally posted 12/29/02

Today was pretty good. Slept in the whole morning. God how I miss sleeping in. Then I went to Matt's house and fixed my wipers. Good thing I did, cuz it was raining like a motherfucker. Also went with him and his dad to pick up his transmission. With me by his side, he'll have that thing up and running in no time. Pretty nasty welds on his bell housing, but what do you expect. Matt, go easier on your clutch, no wonder why that bolt broke. LOL. Am I sleepy right now.... Hell no.... well, maybe a lil. I got food at AU for dinner. Not bad, but not exactly the greatest either.... Their Boba's still pretty good tho. I went to Best Buy to look for a componet set for my ma's Accord. Probably gonna go with a set of Infinity Perfect componets. Although the Kenwood dual mag system also sounded extreamly balanced.... considering it was Kenwood. I'm thinking that I probably can run power from the stock head unit into a amp (probably something like Alpine or Rockford) and power the speakers with that. It'll more then likely blow out the fatory 6x9 in the rears, but like that matters. For a good clean setup, all you need is a good source unit, good power, a nice set of componets and a nice 10" sub. That's it. You'd be suprised how clean of a system you can get that way. Remember, with a good choiced car audio, less is more. Espically if you're an audiophile like me and are always on the search for the cleanest SQ stuff around. Like I said, it's been raining tonight. It started around the time when I got out of Good Guys. Before I forget, the Accord needs new inserts on the left wiper blade. Eh, hate doing inserts. Pain in the ass. The Accord also needs 3 new tires, but my stepdad's a fuckin' cheap ass and wants to buy used all the way around. NOT MATCHING EITHER. Fuckin' a, I have a hard enough of a time driving this thing on the 110 with the stock Michilins, now he wants me to work harder by getting unmatching tires? Are you trying to kill me??? Fuck, You drive the car into the ground and when you do that, my 1987 Legend will still be running strong. Ok, I'm gonna go shop for tires now. See ya guys later.

Originally posted 12/27/02

Well, I'm back again in my ma's office. Unfortunetly, the Legend forums are down.... ONCE AGAIN. :rolls eyes: Well, I was reading emily's xanga and it seems like she has the right idea about love. On the real, "I love you" are extreamly strong words and can make or break someone. Don't be one of those fools that throw those words around like nothing. Remember. You maybe nothing to the world, but to someone, you might be the world. Think about how using those words are going to affect the recieving party.

Ok, as most of yall probably can tell, I'm fuckin' bored. I only got the acura world forums and chat to spend my time on today =T Ain't that a BIATCH!!! My transmission is still acting up and I still need to fuckin' drain and fill the ATF again. Oh well. I'll probably put something up later today. Aight. peace.

Originally posted 12/25/02

I'm just reflecting on how my life has been the past half decade. Can I say that I was happy? For the most part, yes. Certin things I wish that wasn't so. I know I can't go back and change things, but I realize what I could have done to make my life a bit more enjoyable while in school. I realize that I didn't really come out of my shell until late junior year. That was when I started to let myself be me instead of just tryin' ta be in the backdrop. Many of you probably think that I speak a bit diffrently now. That's probably true, cuz I don't have all yall's opinion holdin' me back. Life in school is hard enough as is, but some of you haters really put it on the edge. Yea, I know it's hard for you guys, but it's harder for a student that's barely gettin' by and havin' his mom's bitchin' at him sayin' shit like "Why can't you have straight A's and take AP classes" n shit like that. Then some of you retards have to put me down even more by publicly wishing that I would die... Man, fuck all you haters. Haters can go suck big fat nigger cock. Oh, you don't what dick breath, eh? Ok, then yall's can duke it out with me. Man, sometimes I can't even believe that I wanted to give into somebody's joke wish. Shit, sometimes I wish somebody would kill me and put me out of my fuckin' misury. Some of yall hate without even knowing. Man, all I gotta say is know me before you hate me. But funny thing is that now, how many of yall acctually enjoy what you're doing now and are satisfied with what you're doing? Probably none of yall. That's right, so sit the fuck down. Man, I swear, you don't know a real sence of accomplishment. Shit you know is just psudo-accomplishment. Have any of yall built anything with your hands and have it do better then what you projected? I have. I've build a 400 HP Honda engine and run a 10 second quater mile ON A FUCKIN' SHAKE DOWN RUN! How many of yall can atest to that? None of you. I was down for half the time. Then I met somebody that really cared about me. All yall ladies that would never give me the time of day, yall keep searchin', cuz all yall lost out on a good thing. All the peeps that know me on a personal level, yall know how I think and operate. Yall know everything I think about is assocated to cars in some way or another. SOme of you that think that I just got into cars in HS, you're dead WRONG!!! How many of you can say that you helped your dad rebuild a 1967 Chevelle and have that thing pump out more then 450 HP out of a 308 motor when you were 4? How many of you can say that your turbocharged a Toyota Cressida as a side project with your dad when you were 6? Also when was the first time you drove behind the wheel? 14? 15? Try 1 and a half. I've been into cars my whole fucking life. Don't fuckin' tell me I'm just starting out. How many of yall have been interested in many areas in your life? Ok, I started out like police crusers. Then it went to muscle cars when I was rebuilding that Chevelle. What about tuning japinese cars old school? That's right, I'm not talkin' bout Honda or Toyota or even Mazda. Try Datsun. Never heard of it? Look back to the 1960's and 70's. How many of you can say that you where into lowriders? Too ghetto for ya, huh? Or is it that it's too mexican? Please, tell me. It's funny how people don't know me at all and start assuming shit. Please, do me a big fucking favor..... STOP! Anyways, I'm gonna stop this rant before I feel the need to light up a cig again.

I forgot, I needed to buy rice.

And lastly, Merry Christmas to all and Happy New Year. I hope all you guys do well with the new year (yes, even all you that dispise me, think lowly of me or whatnot). Hey, I'm just tryin' ta keep good carma. Like they say, what goes around comes around. Laters, BIATCH!!

Originally posted 12/24/02

Well. Seems like Michelle came down with the flu. =T She's got a pretty bad fever. I just keep telling her to take nightquil, zonk out, drink lots of water, eat lots of soup (espically stuff with lots of sodium), and take HOT showers. I really hope she feels better tomorrow. It'll suck having her be sick on x-mas. The new Dru Hill CD is good. Better then the previous 2. I still need to get the Woody Rock CD. I also downloaded B2K's Pandimonium CD. Also a very good CD, and a couple tracks to cuddle and share love by. Looks like I'll be workin' at my mom's office until she gets back from Europe. At least she'll be paying me 10 bucks an hour. So, that's good. My car still bleeds heavly and now the transmission acts up when the fluid is cold. I've hit the rev limiter many times already cuz it just doesn't want to shift. I'll flush the fluid out with more Mobil 1 ATF and see if it gets any better. Man, I really miss Michelle right now (even though I just saw her couple hours ago). I swear to you. It's these songs. It just makes you want to be close to your significant other. I still need to goto Godiva and pick up a couple of choclate covered strawberries for Michelle when she gets better. Also another thing is that Derrick (her baby bro) smells like shit again. I know it's random, but it's the honest truth. Somebody, change that kid's diaper. Sickening. Bleh. The Legend forums are continually going down, forcing me to post at acura world. Yea, that sucks. I really miss the matureness of the Legend forums.

Ok, more on Michelle. Hehe. It's so hard for me to resist her charm and beauty. I wish that she could live next to me. Nights probably wouldn't be so lonely. Also we'd probably have those can and string phones wired up (you know, those things you had when you was a kid). I might tease and joke with some of yall, but nothing could ever deter my love from Michelle. The plain simple fact is as it goes in the song, she's my angel, she's my heart, she's everything that I'm wanting, she's everything I need and want. I guess I tell people how much I love her so much that peeps are starting to ask me "How's the wifey?" LOL. I don't mind that comment. I acctually like it cuz I know that's what's gonna happen. Someday for reals, she'll be my wifey.

I'm adding this cuz I keep seeing it on other peep's post

// series 1 - you
---> Name: Dean Chen
---> Birthdate: 4/25/84
---> Current Location: at the comp
---> Hair Color: black
---> Righty or Lefty: right
---> Innie or Outtie: innie

// series two - describe
---> The shoes you wore today: white K Swiss
---> Your hair: 0 side, 6 top
---> Your eyes: brown
---> Your weakness: craving to spend money on cars
---> Your fears: speed bumps and dips.
---> Your perfect pizza: Either BBQ Ckicken or Hawiaan

// series three - what is
---> Your most overused phrase on aol\aim: Doi---> Your thoughts first waking up: damn, it's only 8:30... back to sleep
---> The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes
---> Your best physical features: head/face
---> Your usual bedtime: 2:00
---> Your greatest accomplishment: I don't remember. So many
---> Your best memory: First kiss with Michelle
// series four - do you
---> Smoke: Occasionally
---> Cuss: yes
---> Sing well: yes
---> Take a shower everyday: no
---> Like high school: it was ok. I probably would've fit in better at Van Nuys High.
---> Want to get married: yeah
---> Type with your fingers on the right keys: most of the time
---> Believe in yourself: Always
---> Get motion sickness: no
---> Think you're attractive: Confidence is sexy, aint' it?
---> Think you're a health freak: Gotta shittin' me, right?
---> Get along with your parents: Ma is so-so, stepdad HELL NO, Dad yes
---> Like thunderstorms: No. That means I drive in rain.
---> Play an instrument: Sax, on the 1's and 2's (turn tables for all you non-hip hop heads)

// series five - in the past month, did/have you
---> Drank alcohol: no
---> Smoke(d): yes
---> Done a drug: nicotine (as mentioned above)
---> Made Out: yes
---> Go on a date: yes
---> Go to the mall: yes
---> Been on stage: no
---> Been dumped: no
---> Gone skating: no
---> Made homemade cookies: no
---> Been in love: Am and always will be
---> Gone skinny dipping: nope
---> Dyed your hair: no
---> Stolen anything: Maybe, just not sure

// series six - have you ever?
---> Played a game that required removal of clothing?: hasn't everybody?
---> Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
---> Been caught "doing something": No, but the parents kinda "figured it out"
---> Been called a tease: nope
---> Gotten beaten up: nope.
---> Shoplifted: Nah, I don't think so
---> If so, did you get caught:
---> Changed who you were to fit in: Huh????

// series seven - the future
---> Age you hope to be married: round 22-23ish
---> Numbers and Names of Children: 3-4. either 1 girl and 2 boys or 2 girls and 2 boys.
---> Describe your Dream Wedding: Damn, hard call. All I know is that reception will be OFF THE HOOK!!
---> What age do you want to die: No time soon I hope. I just want to be barried in my Legend
---> What do you want to be when you grow up: Racer
---> What country would you most like to visit: I dunno.
---> Current Clothes: wife beater, boxers
---> Current Mood: lonely
---> Current Hair: the way it always is when it's short
---> Current Annoyance: heater smells like gas
---> Current Smell: Me
---> Current thing you ought to be doing: Sleepin
---> Current Desktop Picture: White Legend GS/Legend LS coupe/NSX pic
---> Current Favorite Groups: A lot to name for this BS
---> Current DVD In Player: Rush Hour 2
---> Current Worry: waking up
---> Current Crush: the same one I've have for the past 2 years. =D

Currently Playing: B2K - Everything, What You Get

Originally posted 12/21/02

*yawn* It's 10:25 and I just woke up. Still got a shit load of eye crust too. Bleh. I still gotta goto the shop to put in my wiper rod, then go buy new black slacks. I'm just dog tired right now. Oooooh, the bed feels soooo damn comfortable right now. I'm probably not gonna get home tonight till fuckin' late. Gotta do Photography. But it's all gravy. *yawn* Aight, I'mma peace out now. Lates.

Originally posted 12/14/02

There's something about Michelle that's so special that I don't think I probably can find in anybody else. Something about when I kiss her, from the moment her lips touch mine to a few moments after finishing, it just makes my worries and fears just float away. I won't care who's around or where we're at. It's just me and her alone in our own world where the population is only 2. She is most defenetly an amazing young woman. Her smile has the ability to lift you up. Her beautiful eyes. Just something about her beautiful brown eyes that that captures me and brings me into a world where I don't ever wanna leave. Some say that the scent of a woman is really the hook, line and sinker. With Michelle, that is very true. Something about her natural aroma that I just love and it makes me just want to kiss her all over her body and make sweet love to her. And when I don't have her, I long to have her with me purely on the basis that I never want to be away from her. I'd go to the end of the world and back for her. Yesterday, I was running EXTREAMLY late picking her up, I was driving so fast that I maxed my car out (around approx 150-160 MPH). Was she mad at me? Of course. I really felt like I fucked up big time. She doesn't deserve that. I try for her because she's the world to me. Without her, my life would be extreamly uneventful and blan (as if it's not blan enough as is). She is the driving force that gets me to persue my dreams because she believes in me when others don't. I love her with all my heart and there isn't one thing that I wouldn't do for her.... even if it was selling my pride and joy (my 87 Sedan). I would do it all for her.

Currently Playing: Aaliyah - Missing You

Originally posted 12/12/02

Man, motherfucker. What the fuck is wrong with me? I can't get sleepy for shit tonight. It's fucking 4:36 a.m. and I gotta fuckin' work tomorrow. WTF!!!!!! I'm defenetly stressing over something, but what? Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn. I did a nice burnout in Glendale today (acctually got nice and smokey too). It was probably really harsh on my trans tho. Oh well. It's done (finally with this trans). I think I'm just not gonna goto work toms. I need to take mich to the doc on fri to get her stuff. Then I got the TL/Legend meet on Sat. I don't know. I want to smoke right now, but I ain't cuz I don't have a pack, no place is open this early to pick one up and I shouldn't anyway. Fuck, I'll see what I can do to get me to sleep. Also, I just found out that Ally Wucetich (hope I spelled that right) made rose queen. Congrats, girl. Hey, somebody tell her to hit my celly up. 786-1284. And this is to some girls that will remain nameless.... yall know you you are: YOU'Z A HO!!!!!! YOU'Z A HO!!!!! YOU'Z A HO!!!!! I SAID THAT YOU'Z A HO!!!!!!! BIATCH!!!!!! :P I really don't want to deal with having to goto PCC to pay for my damn classes and parking permit. It's so fucking gay. I'm too damn tired for that shit anyway. Ok, I'm gonna end this right now. If anything pops into mind, I'll be sure to let ya know.

Originally posted 12/10/02

Yo, yo, yo

I don't know where people come off sayin' that I'm hatin, Can't yall see that all I'm doin' is relatin', can't yall just see that yall just be wastin', ya time and mine, so why don't yall go out and try n find, more bullshit that yall can bind, to that whack personality, cuz honestly, that shit be weaker then what yo mama be, check it, I'm just spittin fluid, just right through it, and I do this shit everyday, from monday to sunday, back again, all day everyday, You know I be talkin' when, heaven listens, me spittin bout shit when, people be doin' me wrong, or could they be smokin' da bong, I don't know, I just think that some of yall just a joke, Like as if some of you be snortin' coke, but nah, you don't see me doin' that shit, Cuz it's the cars and my girl is it, the high, yall feel it, but hold off, cuz girl I'm gonna come to break you off, baby you so fine that you go straight to the top, feelin' you so wet n warm, how could I not release my swarm, shit, girl you know I'm feelin', All this love n all my trust, makin' this love feel so real, but I don't get how other people feel, just a hit n run, just like slappin' da bun, and not even sayin' I love you hun, But yo, I'm just sayin' it true, and makin' it stick like glue, and makin' all these theories n ideologies, tryin' to make what I say realities, Hey, it's hard life when you're doin' what you love, But all I gots it that tuning bug, Hondas, Acuras, Nissans, Toyotas, consistantly talkin' about compression ratios, hoping that this engine I just built won't blow, crank up the boost, feel the need, Speed is like a rush to me, And I feel it when I sweat and bleed, so don't tell me to slow it down please, but back to the story at hand, some of you folks defenetly should be banned, ever hear of me sayin' shit about you before me, nah, retaliation is always easier, jeez, always justafiable, self defence

Ok, I'm loosin' the flow, just ta let yall know, but my shit's commin' out slow, don't ya know, that I'm startin' ta blow, through ya nose, and tear a rip in ya pantiehose, cuz I know that you know that you'z a ho. Aight. Lates

Originally posted 12/6/02

Oh, this just popped into my head. This just goes out to all the SM peeps that don't really know me and assume that I'm this type of persone, thus a reason to hate me. Well, I got 2 words for yall. FUCK YOU!!!!! Are there peeps at SM (including those that have graduated) that are cool and down to earth? Yea. I'm cool with most of yall. Those that act all stuck up and better then everybody else, yall can just get down on ya knees and suck my 6 inch chinese dick. Hey, it's one thing for a chinese dude to have a small dick, but it's just funny and imbarising for a black guy to have a small dick. Hahaha!!!! But anyways, all you haters can go eat shit. Look at me now. I have a job, making reasonable amount of money without ASE cert. and just using the skills I know a learn. Am I going to school? Yes. That's probably more then many of you can say. So what if I don't have a cooshy desk job? I like gettin' my hands dirty an greasy. That's just me. If I had it my way during high school, I would have worked on my car from 1st-3rd period and finish the rest of the day off dirty and greasy. Do I love that? Hell yeah. It's so satisfying. Yall should try it sometime. Also something that some of you should try is acctually COOKING!!!!!! Guys, I know this may seem like a shock to you, but GIRLS LIKE IT WHEN WE COOK FOR THEM!!!!!! Just heads up for you nitwits. And to all the wannabes: Get ya shit straight before someone that's acctually in the game pops you. And for those white boys that try and act hard core: TRY IT IN THE REAL WORLD. If you do, remember this phrase: "HEY BUDDY, GOT A QUATER?!?!?!" San Marino is a fun place, but you guys that are all fuckin' snooty n shit, remember, it ain't your money. So, yall better get down and start sucking. And don't forget to put ya neck into it.

Originally posted 12/6/02

Sup guys. I know it's been a while. Had a fairly good day today. Been sick this past week and a half, but it's on it's way out.

Anyways, hope all yall had a good turkey day and gettin' fat (LOL) cuz I sure did. Now I dred this time of year. The year where I go deeper into my depths of financial hell. I'm having enough problems financially right now, but now it's friggin' shopping season. Oh crap. Luckly for me, I only have to buy for 1. Hehehe The Usher 8701 DVD and maybe something for Fredricks?? That sound good to yall?

I really want to get a 3rd gen Acura Integra, E30 BMW 3-serise or Mecerdes Benz 190E 16v so I can start my autocross project. I'll tell you, it's one thing to go fast straight, but it's so much more fun and rewarding going fast and turning. I also really feel like taking my KYB shocks apart, and chop the shock piston to aquire more rebound. Damn. Crompression is only aquired in the shock valving. That sucks ass. I want stiffer rear suspension!!! Oh, and also, anybody got a baseball bat I can borrow? I really need to roll my fenders.

Another night with Michelle. I really lover her. Just everything. And she looks so cute when she's wearing her blue sweater with the hood pulled over her head. And she can be very sexy too. Just doing certin things in which I won't go too deep into detail. There's something about her that allows me to relax and fall asleep when she's in my arms. Well, now that I'm home, I really wish she could come back with me. =T All will come in due time. Things happen when they're suppose to happen, so I'm not gonna try and rush things.

Ok, I think that's gonna be it for tonight. Lates yall.

Originally posted

Happy Thanksgiving, yall!

-Dean

Originally posted 11/26/02

Well, the easy part of the Del Sol is done and over with. Tomorrow, I gotta start seperating the tranny, pull the wiring harness, and so much other gayness. Then I gotta strap it back onto the car and pray that the car comes to life. Oh, anybody got 8 grand I can borrow? Haha.

Today was cold and it was windy. The cold part, I'm not too sure about cuz I do think I'm starting to get a little sick. But it's damn windy today. Dead leafs blowing all over the place. It got into the shop, the showroom, everything. I hope it brings some cooler weather, but I need to remind myself to start bringing a jacket with me. It's getting that cold.

Nights are still lonely as usual. Nothing new there. Still wishin that Michelle would be here with me. =T Well, looks like I'll have my wish this summer since she'll be attending PCC for some BS classes with me. Yay..... I hope. I really wanna pop her the question, but I think she'll turn it down cuz we're too young and just into college. I'm willing to wait. People ask me, "Are you sure she's the one? I mean, there's lots of chicks out there." Yeah. I'm sure. I mean, a guy tuning down a chance to goto a stip club for the sake of her feelings, doesn't that mean something? Maybe, maybe not... considering how you look at it.

Ok, I'm getting sleepy, so, see ya guys next time..... AND PROP/COMMENT MY MESSAGES DAMN IT!!!!!!

Originally posted 11/23/02

Daaaaamn I hate this break in period for my rotors. It's fuckin' gay. I can't get heavy on the brakes if my life depended on it. Basicly, it an old lady was crossin' da street and I'd have to stop, I'd rather run her over then warp or crack my new cross-drills. Oh well, looks like I'll just do lots of driving then. Hmmmmm. What to do tomorrow (well, today)? I wanna do something new for once. The S.G.V. is just boring now. Only thing we got are food, boba, and food. Otherwise it's kick it at the homie's. Hmmmm, maybe I'll just goto Michelle's house and help her move all her shit back into her room (watch, I'm gonna hurt myself). I don't know. No cash to spend either. Bah, maybe I'll go over to Tan's crib and maybe goto the gym with him.

I love Michelle with all my heart, but her dad is a fuckin' asshole at times.... well, most of the time. And it's only to me cuz I'm supposedly the "asshole boyfriend" that wants nothing but to "get into her panties." Man, what the fuck is the guy thinkin'? Just cuz he was a player back in his day don't mean that I'm one. I try not to let him get to me, but fuck, I hate goin' to her house when he's there. He's always watchin' me like a fuckin' hawk. He's always givin' me the eye n shit. Hell, I wouldn't be too damn suprised if he's sayin' shit about me in tagalog. Another thing that's gay is he won't even let me take her out now. Whenever we go out, we gotta take the boy with us. How fuckin' gay is that shit, on the real. It was hard enough to get alone time with Michelle before, but now, it's almost impossible. On the real, I really wish that he would just put the fuckin' hard ass routine down. I mean, hell, if I want to be a hard ass, I'll fuckin' be a lot more worse then him (not to mention hell of a lot more violent too). I mean, shit, I used to kick it with cholos. But just cuz I hung around with gangsters n shit don't mean I'm not a good guy. Most of the people that know me on a personal level know that I'm a good guy and I don't mind helping other people out (even if it means screwing myself over). "Live by the 10, die by the 10" as the saying goes. I just needed to get some of that shit off my chest. And since this is on a public forum, where he could see it easily, all I wanna say is "HEY!!! I know she's your daughter, but she's my best friend, my lover, my #2, my right hand person, whateever the fuck you wanna call it, that's what she is to me. And if you can't get it through you're thick skull that she's my world, then you need to open your eyes, swallow ya pride, and fuckin' learn that NOT EVERY GUY IS A PLAYER!!!!" I mean, hell, I got my head on so straight that I wouldn't even play. I'd just dump all of my cash into my car. Would I know what love is if it was that way? Yes, but not on this deep of a level. I love my car so much that I'll probably never sell it, but I love Michelle so much that I'd die for her, just so that way she could live on because if it came down to one of us dieing for something, I'd die cuz I see so much potential in Michelle and I know that she could do anything she wants and probably be happy. As for me, I'm already doing something I love and I'm happy. I'd just want her to continue with her dreams since I've achieved most of mine. But I guess a person could always dream new dreams, but I'm more then content with what I have right now in life as a whole.

Originally posted 10/21/02

Deng, I'm sooooo insomniatic.... well, a night owl. But I guess the fact that I had 2 frapuccinos tonight didn't really help. I also think I'm gettin' sick too. Not good. Today is just weird. Tonight is warm too. I wish it was cooler. I like it cuz it's cuddling weather. I don't really care for rain because I don't want to drive in it. I'm just hella parinoid of the rain and my braking abilities (consider my car is 15 years old, has stainless steel braided lines and now cross-drilled rotors and no abs). Don't get me wrong, for a street car, abs is a good thing for safety sake, but the early abs systems are just pure absolute crap, in my opinion. Ok, I just needed to vent that. Hahaha. Well, like I said, I finally got the time to install my cross-drilled rotors. Time for the 500 mile break in period, so that means no racing for about half a month :( .

Man, what was up with today? Did some of those metiors hit people in the head or something? I had to work on 2 cars for stock springs swap. Don't get me wrong, Honda makes very compitent suspension for it's DC chassis (90-01 Integra for you non-Honda nuts). But what are people downgrading from performance drop springs (H&R and Suspension Techniques) to revert back to factory? I am somewhat befuttled. Well, the car with the ST's, I could understand. The guy has a baby and the drop is somewhat extream. But why would anybody in their right mind switch from H&R to factory? Oh well.

If you guys and gals are looking for thai food in Pasadena, goto Chandras (I know, I probably spelled it wrong). Their food is really good. The thai teas arn't as sweet as I typically get that at cafes, but still sweet enough to be good to drink. Oh, and sake is the SHIT!!! I only had half a shot within the 3 hours I was there, so most of the alcohal wore off by the time I left. Bad thing is that I'm Chinese, so, when I took the shot, right after, I was FUCKED UP!!!!! Oh well. Large body mass took care of that within the first half hour.

I'm just looking at all the pictures in my room of Michelle and I. I know I'm very lucky to have a girl like her loving me, but just looking at some of the pictures just makes me fall in love with her all over again. I really do treat her as the queen she is. I just love her with all my heart. Sometimes, well, a lot of the time I do wish she would live closer (next door would be ideal) and at night, she could just hop on over into my room. I would just hold her close to me, keep her covered up and warm. I'd just watch her sleep so peacefully; kiss her forehead and just fall asleep with her in my arms. I don't know. My bed just feels so empty without her by my side. All within due time. There's a time and place for everything, and when that happends, it'll happend at the time and place it's suppose to happen as God would plan it.

Wow, I think that's the first time I mention God in any of my posts. Just to let yall know, I am Christian. I may not exactly be the most devout Christian, but I do believe in God and I do try to continue to walk in his words. I'll tell you this that it might not be on a daily basis, but I try. Man, I'll tell you, God is good. He's good for the spirit and soul. I also hope it's God's will for Michelle and I to grow together. From the looks of things, it seems like God is very accepting of the relationship that I have with Michelle. Hope I wake up early enough on Sunday for church. Hehe. I'll tell you this, if you go to God for help, he'll be more then willing because he loves every single being on this earth. I used to be Buddist when I was younger, that they had very good phylosiphies on life, but nowhere near on how life should be lived as a follower of God. Now, for the muslums (sorry if I spelled it wrong), I got love for yall too. For the most part, you peeps are good peeps. So, don't let all the zenophobia get to yall.

Ok, well, I'm gonna end this VERY long entry now. I hope all yall do good til my next web log entry. Aight, peace.

-Dean

Originally posted 10/19/02

God motherfucking damn. What the fuck is up with this weather?!?! I've been having sneezing fits all fucking day long cuz it's so damn warm, the dust gets kicked up like no other motherfucker. Oh well. Things I need to do.... Pay for JDM corners, silicone my oil pan gasket, install cross-drilled rotors, convert my cartrage oil filter to screw on filter and replace oil cooler gasket, fabricate front and rear strut tower bars, relocate battery to the trunk, make a cold air intake, body work, repaint. Well, enough of that. Work was kinda slow today. Cleaned the shop a bit. and then I started stripping intake manifolds. I hate fumbling around with harnesses, but it's all good. Ya feel? Well, I learned that the bolts on the intake manifold for Hondas are all 10mm and 12mm. Hahaha. Well, that's true for Integra and Civic manifolds anyway. I want to buy this 1990 Legend coupe 5-speed to build as my street/strip car. I know how to build it too. NAAAAAWWWWWZZZZZZ!!!!!!! Hahaha. Seriously, it's the cheapest route to get the HP I'm looking for. I'm gonna get a small setup for my sedan anyway, but if I get the coupe, it's not gonna get weighed down with a sub. And if I do have a sub in there, I'm gonna make sure it's in a fuggin' small enclosure to keep the weight down. I slept well for once in a while. I went to sleep at 10 last night, woke up at 7, went back to sleep and then woke up at 9:30. Pretty damn good. I'm gonna take some flu meds tonight just in case and that shit should knock me out like no other. Oh, I WANT THE MISCHEF 3000 DVD FOR CHRISTMAS!!!! Hehehe. I ate breakfast/lunch at home today, and ate Pho for dinner. Pho Superbowl is GREAT!!! Really good food and exceptional service. Go try em! They located on Main St. just west of Mission. Just tell em the guy with the blue Legend sent ya! Aight, that's it for now. Laters peep!!!!!!!!

Originally posted 11/12/02

Mood - Lonely =(

Today, it went from OK to me becoming out of it. I don't know what the fuck is up with me. I still gotta do school shit tomorrow too. Damn. I'm probably gonna have a hard time sleeping tonight. Well, at work, it started out ok. On a break, I decided to call Michelle. Well, unfortuently, she was busy. =T Sometimes to do feel like a dope, for some unknown reason. I'm just so deeply in love with her, and I don't know if love is blinding me or am I acctually seeing what is going on around me. Funny how compleat devotion to somebody can hurt you, even though it's pretty much all self-inflicted just because you miss that other person so much. I wish so much that Michelle could live closer to me. Better yet, have her live next door so, whenever she wants, she can hop through my window and into my room. Only in my dreams. I've told Bonnie this, but in all seriousness, I am like Drew Carey. I'm the one guy that all the girls describe what they want their guy's to be, and yet, they don't see what's in front of them... possibly because I try and keep as low of a profile as I can, or maybe it's that I'm shy... or maybe it's the fact that I'm a big, fat guy and that turns the ladies away. Who the fuck knows anyway. I'm happy with Michelle, but I wonder sometimes how my life would be diffrent if I was more fit, skinnier, or whaever. Oh well. People always tell me that I'm so sweet. True, but I've learned that sweet keeps you on the good side of people, but also on the back of their minds. Don't ask me how or why, in the world I've encountered, that just the way shit flows. Well, back to the love hurts subject, love is a great and wonderful thing, but be warned. It does have side effects. Like me, right now. I love Mich so much, that I go through withdrawls sometimes when she's not with me. I'll miss her so much that I get depressed and all I can think about is how much I want her to be here with me... Just to feel her touch is magical. Her smile has the ability to light up my day, even if I'm in the slumps. Michelle's eye are one of a kind. They're so beautiful. I can't resist just looking into her brown eyes. Her lips is where all her majic comes out. Mich's kiss. Simply undescribable. I love her kisses. Anytime I'm face to face with her, I just want to kiss her soft lips so much. She also has the ability to relax me in a way that nothing else in this world can. Amazing how I'm saying this and I've been with her for over 2 years now. Ok internet people. I'm out.

Dean

P.S. Acctually I wanna put 2 songs that I'm listening to, so....

Currently Playing:

Destiny's Child - Brown eyes

Brian McKnight - One Last Cry

originally posted 10/11/02

Happy vet day people. A moment of silence for those soldiers that have been lost in the fight for freedom.

Well, anyway, I still have no answers for my problematic remote start problem. =T Well, I'm still waiting on the phone call for sponsership. This is gonna be pritty kick ass. But I didn't really do jack shit. Haha. But it's cool. Ate noodles for lunch and curry for dinner. Not bad. Hahaha. Me and Chalita was talking about Japinese curry vs. Thai curry. LOL It's all good, and IMO, Thai curry is yummier. Hell yea. Hung out at Cathy's house today with Alex. She's doing ok, but shes on crutches. Oh snap, that reminds me, I forgot the get Need for Speed from Alex. Bah, it's ok. Next time..... maybe. hahaha. Well, I'm off to do whatever. Laters.

Currently Playing: My Thoughts - Avant - This Time

originally posted 10/9/02

It's raining. It's all good n shit, but I HATE DRIVING IN THE RAIN!!!!!! Well, I don't know if my Pirelli P7000 tires help a lot cuz I don't wanna push my car in the rain too much. I really gotta call up Acura to see if there's some sort of retaining clip or fastener that holds the wiper linkage to the motor arm. I've had my wipers die on me twice already ON THE FREEWAY!!! Damn shit get's annoying..... espically since I'm driving thru the rain with no wipers.Last night, hung out with Michelle again. Damn I love her. We watched "Mr. Deeds". Funny shit, eh. We ate rice with some soup that her mom made, but I still had a craving for Pho. I think I should spend the cash since I still need to pay for lots of stuff. Ah well, it's all good. Oh, that reminds me, I probably should send a deposit for my JDM corners. Hahaha. That means taking a trip to the bank to deposit some cash. My stepdad is soooo fuckin' annoying. More then my wiper deal too!!! I swear, I wanna punch him in the head. It's saturday, and I want to get my sleep in. He starts pounding on my door at 9:30. All for what? The gook wants me to install Windows in his POS computer. That computer should be put out of it's misiry and be used for scrrap parts. In a later log, I'll have some of my freestyle stuff up. And remember. LOVE, PEACE, AND SOUL!!!!!!!!!! Duces out.Currently Playing: All I Have - Amerie - Talkin' To Me

Originally posted 10/7/02

Wasup internet people (well, mostly peeps from my AOL buddy list probably). This is my very first entry, so, good for me then, huh? Ok, well, miss nolana, and mr matt wong, thanks for adding another place for me to frequent on the net (besides the Legend forums). I just watched the new BMW short films (can be downloaded at www.bmwfilms.com) and they are very geed films. Personally, I like "Hostage" better the "Ticker". Anywho, it's about 9:20 right now, and I probably should be getting ready to goto work. I wanna get that damn Civic out of the shop. Well, that's probably gonna be it for now. Ok, until next time, remember, love, peace, and SOUL!!!!!!!

Welcome to my new personal blog

Welcome to my new personal blog. I will be slowly but surely be transitioning my blog from my old Xanga account to here. Also I will be reposting those posts to here as well within the following weeks.